Friday, April 3, 2020


News of the Covid-19 pandemic is worse and worser. Meanwhile, this is how I watch Television on my non-cabled 12 inch old clunker which gets reasonable reception from it's rabbit-ear antenna on several key channels (thank goodness)
and this is my 12 inch cabled laptop where I store pictures, get email, construct my blog posts and read several others, interact on Facebook, and watch you tube and other videos.

How might it be, I wonder, without these luxuries?
More silent and less stressful I suspect.
Still, my 'prayer' is that the electric grid is maintained and the cable connections hold for the duration,

"April Fools"
(A Holiday gift from my Massachusetts 'family')

Self Defense
Midnight Temperature 97.7-taken once or twice a day because of Covid-19. It's not all I do now, locked down in my apartment for who knows how long, I've gotten blurry in more ways than one.
'Retired' many years ago, I lived alone and time was at my command for the most part. Other than the occasional appointments, meetings or events, It was simply mine to decide. Now, it's out of my hands.
One abandons the external clock and reverts to that internal one; to night and day, the minute details of each moment and every activity in the service of survival. Sound dominates the current quiet. How welcome are these clankings of hundred year old iron pipes as they deliver hissing heat. How comforting that hiss is. Everything seems to take more time, yet time continues to expand or contract unpredictably. Out of contact with people, thinking about them has becomes more abstract, introspection more intense.
Time to get Out Walking

Union Square

Squil in Bloom
Chess and Dog Walking

A gathering without social distance

Social distance line to enter Trader Joe Grocery Store
entrance at the far left (middle) down near Third Avenue!
I decided I didn't need anything. 

 8 p.m.
Watched full Episode
"The Polio Crusade"
Remembered getting the shot at school and that I developed a slight fever late that evening at home, but it passed.
Ten Minute Preview


Wednesday, April 1, 2020



“It is now highly feasible to take care of everybody on Earth at a higher standard of living than any have ever known. It no longer has to be you or me. Selfishness is unnecessary. War is obsolete. It is a matter of converting the high technology from weaponry to livingry.”

-Buckminster Fuller-

(Thanks to Jude Hill/SpiritCloth) 

I got out of my apartment. First to my local Pharmacy for a box of 100 latex gloves at a very reasonable price. Then to the supermarket to replenish food supplies and on the way, at 7 p.m. apartment buildings along a whole block and also on second avenue flung open windows and applauded, shouted, blew horns and shook bells. One man sang a version of a Frank Sinatra song. It was one of those pre-planned shut'in things like when the Italians did it in that viral video.
I also noted a sign honoring all "essential worker: repeated on several trees along 23rd Street. Cheered me, as did the sweet pansies in the tree well.


Farewell a while Dear Friendlies
and Farewell March for good.
I'm Ready for the April Fools.


Monday, March 30, 2020


Manhattan at Dawn
Weary. Slept a lot. Never got out due to Rain
Maybe tomorrow.
Meanwhile, thank you for all the comments on my last blog post. Although I'm not set up to carry on conversations there, I hope you know I'm grateful.

About Dogs and Cats
I posted a funny thing at Face book about dogs 'being able to travel because they can't get the virus', but the post came from another source and I didn't fact check. Today I did and it turns out, though seldom, two dogs and one cat have:
Vet Site for More Information

Recently critical in hospital being treated for Covid-19. This song is so fine. It's about living within and I think it's swell

Silent but for the hissing I hear inside my head.
No birdsong, only the occasional car passing, a back-up beeper, some police outside the Precinct talking and laughing. I woke at 6:30 a.m. in a panic, with an Image of empty beds at the Javits Center turned hospital ready to receive a thousand non-covid patients expected.
Here's what it looks like:
If you have time and inclination, you can watch the hospital ship "SS Comfort" travel down river into port for an hour + and listen to the Mayors welcome and the Captains description. Two Hours total, but you can scroll through. 
I spent the day home, posted at face book, but was primarily in bed, sleeping, reading, listening to National Public Radio.

"Teddy" was kind company.

 8:30 p.m.
I've felt chilly all afternoon and have resorted to my electric radiator.
This apartment is one of the few old ones left and it's drafty.
Meanwhile, the heat pipes and apartment radiator cycle on and off according to the legal preset and it is not quite enough for me today. Sweater, socks, hat and shawl improve things. Soup's on and I have much to be grateful for. 

My small discomforts do not weigh much against the individual and collective suffering on and of our planet. This Covid-19 virus pandemic has added enormously to that suffering.

"Namo Avalokiteshvara Chant"

Sunday, March 29, 2020


Virtual Sangha Monday
via ZOOM
Koshin Paley Ellison and Robert Chodo Campbell

Many members appeared and spoke,
each from their own homes.

We Meditated Together
My screen shots are inadequate to convey the absolutely magical experience. Although I couldn't actually join in due to lack of cell and camera connected to my laptop, thanks to Alex Goden, I was able to see and hear the whole session.What a gift. Those of you familiar with the technology will understand.

6:15 a.m.
Then the Sun rose and my open windows let air circulate for several hours, clearing that stuffy shut-in apartment staleness.
Mailed two cards to two friends, picked up arugula on sale and had the necessary walk about while keeping my distance.  

6:15 p.m.
 Reflected sunset in the East

It rained and threatens more
Late Afternoon
Walk to Gramercy Park
 Calder Sculpture
His kids bought a building on the North side that used to be many apartments. Friends lived there for years.
Gutted and converted to a one family.
Why it's called "Janey Waney'
 New Bank in town
Keeping Personal Distance

6 a.m.
As of this morning, New York City had close to 18,000 COVID-19 cases (half the cases in the State and 1/3 of the cases nationwide).  Manhattan's share was 3,187; Queens led the City with 5,066 cases.

One Flower
by Jack Kerouac

One flower
on the cliffside
Nodding at the canyon


Baked three Molasses Corn-bread Loafs
Cooked Apples

6 a.m.
"Red sky in the morning
Sailors heed warning."

I Know Who and Where I Am
Ms 3.28.2020

I'm  living in the light
shining bright.

I'm my entire past
presently manifesting.

I'm free floating stardust,
'million year old carbon'.

I'm a blooming garden
with an herbal heart.

I'm heading for extinction
in no hurry at all.

Inspiration for "I know Who and Where I Am"

Afternoon and Evening
Prepping Food
Shallot, wilted Arugula
Sweet Potato
Supper and Leftovers
Baked chicken tenders, Arugula with feta and farmers cheese
Toasted sweet potato

9 p.m.
"Handmaids Tale"
"Throughout The Handmaid's Tale, issues of feminism, abortion rights, male dominance, and conservative religious politics all come under fire. Some may view the film itself as anti-female considering its concepts, but it is quite the opposite. Instead it shows how only through solidarity can women bring down an overriding patriarchal mindset. The film, which works from Harold Pinter's screenplay adaptation of Margaret Atwood's novel, features strong performances."
I fell asleep.
Slept right through it. I remember reading the original. The book is in one of those stacked book boxes I hope to cart down to the Strand if it still exists when this 'Ongoing Unknown' runs it's course.

Monday, March 23, 2020

ON and ON and ON

The day stretched out 
Then shrunk to evening

5:30 p.m.
Manhattan View Eastward as the 'ongoing' goes on. Cool, clear air drifts through my rooms three flights up from deserted City Streets and the little dog who lives below barks for his absent companion.

7 p.m
Church bells tolled at 6 and news on the radio reminded me that our Administration is actively defending itself with promises of protecting all of us and tightening the rules more.

The Weighing
by Jane Hirshfield

The heart’s reasons
seen clearly,
even the hardest
will carry
its whip-marks and sadness
and must be forgiven.

As the drought-starved
eland forgives
the drought-starved lion
who finally takes her,
enters willingly then
the life she cannot refuse,
and is lion, is fed,
and does not remember the other.

So few grains of happiness
measured against all the dark
and still the scales balance.

The world asks of us
only the strength we have and we give it.
Then it asks more, and we give it.

Supper Time
Midnight Stroll
 Bought Incense.
 walked twenty blocks.
looked up at blooming trees.

What a long week it seemed.
I wonder what this next will feel like.
Months? We shall see.

Sunday, March 22, 2020


New York State
Confirmed Corona-virus Cases
Many dear friends are suffering from Isolation 
Total Lock Down goes into force Sunday
Late Night Walk
Daffodils bloom in the Silence
After Midnight

5 p.m.

My friend J.A.F.

Loving the neighborhood street trees

City Trees
by Edna St. Vincent Millay

The trees along this city street,
  Save for the traffic and the trains,
Would make a sound as thin and sweet
  As trees in country lanes.

And people standing in their shade
  Out of a shower, undoubtedly
Would hear such music as is made
  Upon a country tree.

Oh, little leaves that are so dumb
  Against the shrieking city air,
I watch you when the wind has come,
  I know what sound is there.

7 p.m.
East 23rd Street at First Avenue

"It is in the shelter of each other that the people live"
Irish Proverb
(4 minutes)

Friday, March 20, 2020


Madison Square Park
Artist Project
at the North end of the Park
Animates this statue of Admiral David Glasgow Farragut
The Artist states: "I hope that as the monument is brought to life the projection will, in turn, animate the hearts and minds of the public, helping to inspire a greater emotional understanding of both the refugees’ lived experiences and the help displaced persons desperately need. Borrowing the words of David Miliband, President, International Rescue Committee, we must strengthen the civic demand that “the United States, the world’s richest nation, reverse the current course of denying assistance and safety to refugees and asylum-seekers.”
Full Interview

Domestic Heroes

This Market is Open 24 Hours
Reasonable prices, Organic and vegetarian choices.
Bus Drivers


Spring officially arrives in the Northeast before midnight this evening. I've been brooding over the long term effects of this pandemic. Rain is falling lightly and I'm feeling a bit blueish. Hot chocolate will help.

It did.
An hour walking around the neighborhood also helped.
While mailing a package at the post, I heard that Baruch, which was already closed for classes, Just evacuated entirely. Staff and teachers were working and the library had been available to students. Two staff members were diagnosed with the virus!

Blooming on East 23rd Street

6 p.m.
Well Stocked

Also more on the door and in the freezer
 plus jars of beans, grains and nuts,coconut and olive oil
6 p.m.
Supper Preparation Begins

 dicing fresh garlic next
there will be additions once steamed and warmed

Enough Toilet Paper

9 p.m.
Throw-back Thursday Entertainment

"American drama film based on the 1991 novel of the same name by Whitney Otto. Directed by Jocelyn Moorhouse, the film stars Winona Ryder, Anne Bancroft, Ellen Burstyn, Kate Nelligan. Includes Maya Angelou, Jean Simmons, Rip Torn, Alfre Woodard and more. It marked Jared Leto’s film debut. Nominated by the Screen Actors Guild Award for Outstanding Performance by a Cast in a Motion Picture."

Of course, I'm keeping up with the Corona news
detaching from it